I'm learning everyday to be less judgemental and more thankful to have angels sent into my life to beautify it.
It is antonishing how rare beauty and purity wins over in a world so brutally realistic.
Thank You, you, you, you, you and you and you for always being there.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
I was in the subway on Sunday morning heading to kbs.
Life has been super hectic lately with experiments in the lab, team projects, exams and shootings, and job hunting. The stress just piled up higher and higher, and maybe because I was sick, and I didn't go home this winter (when everybody did), didn't celebrate all the special days with my love ones, and all the most important people in my life is there, and because I didn't get to eat all the food I wanna eat, and I don't get to hug my dog...
I was overwhelmed with emotions. Homesickness.
And let me tell you people. This is when we overseas students grow up.
And YES. It still happens after six years.
And YES. I know I'm god damned lucky I'm here.
And YES. I'm thankful for everything I've already got.
The thing is when you don't get to share special moments with your family. You miss birthdays, anniversaries, everything.
When you just can’t be there, when you’re needed.
When you have to conceal what you're actually feeling to them.
When you try to convince yourself that it is all for the better.
When you're sorry but you know if you tell them you are, it would make them feel worse.
And when you hear your parents telling you they are learning to "let go", it is heart wrenching.
And when you look around and see all your peers (the Korean friends) going back "home", you just feel this pang of jealously. Seriously.
In that subway, what I saw was a girl, my age with her mom.
Her mom was trying to feed her something and she pushed her mom's hand away. Certainly not ill-manneredly, just a little frustrated maybe. I do that to mummy too sometimes, but at that point of time, I was so madly jealous of how blissful the whole picture looked to me and I tried to look away, I tried to calm myself down but the babi tears just sprung outta my eyes.
Those Korean ajoshi ajumma must think I'm crazy or that I just went through a bad break up or whatever bah. Thank goodness I was only two stops from my destination.
Babi bad mood but I'm all good now.
Bye.
Thanks for reading up to here.
I admire your patience.
Life has been super hectic lately with experiments in the lab, team projects, exams and shootings, and job hunting. The stress just piled up higher and higher, and maybe because I was sick, and I didn't go home this winter (when everybody did), didn't celebrate all the special days with my love ones, and all the most important people in my life is there, and because I didn't get to eat all the food I wanna eat, and I don't get to hug my dog...
I was overwhelmed with emotions. Homesickness.
And let me tell you people. This is when we overseas students grow up.
And YES. It still happens after six years.
And YES. I know I'm god damned lucky I'm here.
And YES. I'm thankful for everything I've already got.
The thing is when you don't get to share special moments with your family. You miss birthdays, anniversaries, everything.
When you just can’t be there, when you’re needed.
When you have to conceal what you're actually feeling to them.
When you try to convince yourself that it is all for the better.
When you're sorry but you know if you tell them you are, it would make them feel worse.
And when you hear your parents telling you they are learning to "let go", it is heart wrenching.
And when you look around and see all your peers (the Korean friends) going back "home", you just feel this pang of jealously. Seriously.
In that subway, what I saw was a girl, my age with her mom.
Her mom was trying to feed her something and she pushed her mom's hand away. Certainly not ill-manneredly, just a little frustrated maybe. I do that to mummy too sometimes, but at that point of time, I was so madly jealous of how blissful the whole picture looked to me and I tried to look away, I tried to calm myself down but the babi tears just sprung outta my eyes.
Those Korean ajoshi ajumma must think I'm crazy or that I just went through a bad break up or whatever bah. Thank goodness I was only two stops from my destination.
Babi bad mood but I'm all good now.
Bye.
Thanks for reading up to here.
I admire your patience.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Sunday, April 04, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
SO NOT COOL.
I think I'm so not cool.
Because I care too much about what others think eventhough I try so hard to act as if I don't.
Because I find myself controlling myself from totally saying what is actually on my mind; half hoping that the other person could guess what I really mean -_-
That is SO NOT COOL.
And plus, I often think too much over a simple sentence. Analyzing it and then coming up with my own assumptions.
BLAHHHHH!!! SO NOT COOL.
Maybe that's the complicated female mind or whatsover. I think I'm just very the BIG DEE.
And I'm getting all these weird suggestions to just follow those crazy notions in my head and do whatever I want. Just because I'm young and I can afford to make mistakes.
No no no. I think I'm way too much of a perfectionist or above that, a coward.
I think I just needa vent and well I'm venting and I don't want to be cool now and I don't care who is reading.
LALALA. -_-
The weather is driving me crazy.
I think I'm so not cool.
Because I care too much about what others think eventhough I try so hard to act as if I don't.
Because I find myself controlling myself from totally saying what is actually on my mind; half hoping that the other person could guess what I really mean -_-
That is SO NOT COOL.
And plus, I often think too much over a simple sentence. Analyzing it and then coming up with my own assumptions.
BLAHHHHH!!! SO NOT COOL.
Maybe that's the complicated female mind or whatsover. I think I'm just very the BIG DEE.
And I'm getting all these weird suggestions to just follow those crazy notions in my head and do whatever I want. Just because I'm young and I can afford to make mistakes.
No no no. I think I'm way too much of a perfectionist or above that, a coward.
I think I just needa vent and well I'm venting and I don't want to be cool now and I don't care who is reading.
LALALA. -_-
The weather is driving me crazy.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
There are times when things don't go as smoothly as we what expected, but in the end they turn out fine. Things were jumbled up since the start of the new sem but I've sorted them out.
But still, two weeks into the new semester and I'm not my usual happy, bubbly self.
Argggh! I don't know what is wrong with me.
I wish I have a dog. A huge one, to be my guardian, to be loyal to me.
But still, two weeks into the new semester and I'm not my usual happy, bubbly self.
Argggh! I don't know what is wrong with me.
I wish I have a dog. A huge one, to be my guardian, to be loyal to me.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Many foreigners say that Koreans are very shy and conservative.
In some sense, they are and I suppose that's why so many people gush over how cute Korean girls are. Well, we girls gush over how cute Korean guys are too. >< color="#ff0000"> H.O.Tand certainly the center of attraction.
SOoooooo much hotter than hot mamma. AHAHAHAHA ^^v
Hot mamma here can only stare and drool because hot mamma have neither the body nor the guts to wear such a HOT outfit bah~ xp
So, this was on a Saturday night.
At Hongdae - Hongdae is short for Hongik University
It's a popular shopping + drinking + clubbing + 미팅(group blind dating) + 소개팅(blind dating) + etc place for university students.
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Your truly, hot mamma who's basically a nerdy engineering student does not frequent Hongdae or clubs but there were certainly some really great memories hot mamma spent with gjq.
Qi.. Remember the KISS? or the crazy model-posing-without-cams in clubs and going home at 12 when that's the time others start to party?
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA xD.
Okay, okay, back to topic.
Bada was playing in Mansion the other night so Pascal brought Marie-yon and I there.
Erke was down and out with the flu. Boo hoo.. Too bad there'll be no piccas of him.
(Hah! I bet some of you people come back here just to see piccas of him. *I'm so jealous! ~.~ ) .
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Bada looks soooo cool here! OMG!
We went late so we didn't actually get to see him play.
I don't know why is he the "wasted German" but he was still pretty sober and cool cz he was wearing these clingy clothes that shows all his curves. I mean curves as in curves of his biceps and triceps.
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Got to meet his sister who's really nice and his gf.
*Yes people, Bada has a gf.
There were fire splurting out from each end of the stage and we heard from somebody that a girl with long hair caught fire when the last "Seoul is burning" was held. O_o
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Sweetie Marie-yon and Pascal ><. I think they somehow look really good together in this picca. Don't they?.
Hot mamma wore a sexy tube top but obstinately kept her long sleeved cardigan on inspite of all Marie-yon's complains and pleadings to "Just take it OFF!!!".
Sorry, I haven't been out clubbing for a long time and I somehow forgot how to be sexy and hot.
Even Pascal wore something that bares more skin than me.
ps: Marie-yon and I got sick after Saturday night, and we are both still sick. :/
OTL
In some sense, they are and I suppose that's why so many people gush over how cute Korean girls are. Well, we girls gush over how cute Korean guys are too. >< color="#ff0000"> H.O.Tand certainly the center of attraction.
SOoooooo much hotter than hot mamma. AHAHAHAHA ^^v
Hot mamma here can only stare and drool because hot mamma have neither the body nor the guts to wear such a HOT outfit bah~ xp
So, this was on a Saturday night.
At Hongdae - Hongdae is short for Hongik University
It's a popular shopping + drinking + clubbing + 미팅(group blind dating) + 소개팅(blind dating) + etc place for university students.
.
Your truly, hot mamma who's basically a nerdy engineering student does not frequent Hongdae or clubs but there were certainly some really great memories hot mamma spent with gjq.
Qi.. Remember the KISS? or the crazy model-posing-without-cams in clubs and going home at 12 when that's the time others start to party?
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA xD.
Okay, okay, back to topic.
Bada was playing in Mansion the other night so Pascal brought Marie-yon and I there.
Erke was down and out with the flu. Boo hoo.. Too bad there'll be no piccas of him.
(Hah! I bet some of you people come back here just to see piccas of him. *I'm so jealous! ~.~ ) .
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Bada looks soooo cool here! OMG!
We went late so we didn't actually get to see him play.
I don't know why is he the "wasted German" but he was still pretty sober and cool cz he was wearing these clingy clothes that shows all his curves. I mean curves as in curves of his biceps and triceps.
.
Got to meet his sister who's really nice and his gf.
*Yes people, Bada has a gf.
There were fire splurting out from each end of the stage and we heard from somebody that a girl with long hair caught fire when the last "Seoul is burning" was held. O_o
.
Sweetie Marie-yon and Pascal ><. I think they somehow look really good together in this picca. Don't they?.
Hot mamma wore a sexy tube top but obstinately kept her long sleeved cardigan on inspite of all Marie-yon's complains and pleadings to "Just take it OFF!!!".
Sorry, I haven't been out clubbing for a long time and I somehow forgot how to be sexy and hot.
Even Pascal wore something that bares more skin than me.
ps: Marie-yon and I got sick after Saturday night, and we are both still sick. :/
OTL
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
Went to a party in Copacabana, Nonhyeong after dinner with erke, Pascal and Bada.
Posing like that with Pascal beside me... feeling a little glam. hahaha.
*note: that's his hand on my shoulder and I was leaning in. Gushhh *^^*
Didn't really know what the party was for but it was called
"First Thursday After Work Valentine's Day Moet and Chandon Rose"
Because I'm such a kiddy,I was clueless so I went and googled "Moet" and... O_o
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And I looked like THAT. :(
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Ps: Stole all piccas from facebook
Posing like that with Pascal beside me... feeling a little glam. hahaha.
*note: that's his hand on my shoulder and I was leaning in. Gushhh *^^*
Didn't really know what the party was for but it was called
"First Thursday After Work Valentine's Day Moet and Chandon Rose"
Because I'm such a kiddy,I was clueless so I went and googled "Moet" and... O_o
"Moet is a French winery and co-owner of the luxury goods company Moet-Hennesy - Louis Vuitton."
*Eyes wide open, jaw drops*
That pink rose beside that bottle in the tub certainly is sweet and classy. Ain't it?
.The music was cool
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Great atmosphere.
Lots of party people. None I knew.
.However, I've got the chance to get to know alot of new nice people.
And thank goodness some did recognize me from misuda and that made me feel less like a tiny ant ready to be squash. Everytime somebody introduces me to somebody, the conversation goes.....
"Hey, this is khay inn, she's on misuda." It feels kinda like
*misuda >> khay inn*
Misuda wins over khay inn. SO MUCH MORE. Well, it's not a bad thing I suppose ^^v.
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And the reason why I kinda felt like an ant. Hot girls, handsome guys...
.With sizzling sexy hot girls like that... *No wonder Pascal loves partying.
And I looked like THAT. :(
That's Marie-yon, her boyfriend and yours truly-the little red ant.
.Marie-yon and I certainly felt a little out of place but I'm sure given more chances, I believe we shall get use and start to enjoy ourselves. ^^
This is cool! I don't know how they manage to fix fireworks to the champagne bottle but that certainly was FINE!~~~~~~~
.Everytime somebody popped a bottle, there'll be fireworks and it was quite an attention grabber. :)
Cool cool...~
Hmm, that's all for now folks.
Cheers to my first glam party experience.
*I certainly wish I have cleavage like that! xp
.Ps: Stole all piccas from facebook
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