Had heaps of fun on Redang Island minus the jealous part that I was forbidden to do scuba diving when everybody's persuading me to just do it.
I can't do it without my parents' blessing, seriously.
I guess I'm still a very protected good girl. -_-

By the way, I didn't know the real reason until the moment we sent Pascal off from Terengganu airport.
Daddy forbids me to do my licence because this month is the month of the "Hungry Ghost" in the lunar calendar.
-______________-

Goodnight world.

kekeke. Memoriesss...
The day I got that freaking ugly scar on my left shin.
And also the day Marie-yon fought for my right.
And also the day she cried like a babyyyyy.
:) :) :)

During my stay in South Korea, I tried to stopover and tour as many countries as I could whenever I get the chance to travel back to Malaysia.
So far I've been to Japan, Vietnam, Cambodia, Thailand, New Zealand and I've never wanted to go out when I stopover in Taipei or Hong Kong.
There's just no urge to go to a Chinese based country.

I had been eyeing China for a long time but I had never tried hard enough to go there, a part of me somehow didn't like it that much. (Despite being a Malaysian-chinese)

When Laiyee and I booked our tiks to China, we didn't plan much, we were fooling around wasting time, totally unprepared for the China trip.
Maybe both of us weren't that into China afterall.

I was actually craving for Malaysia and with my parents being god-damned worried about our 18-day-trip, I secretly hoped that the 18 days would pass faster.

It's too bad I cannot access blogger in China, I felt loads when I was there, and I was dying to write. Nah. Not now, just transfered the piccas into the comp, I'll tell the story when I'm inspired to write.
Goodnight world.

ps: I'm kinda amazed with how abruptly I can end my blog posts. Selfish writer, not considering the feelings of readers at all. -_-

I was in the subway on Sunday morning heading to kbs.
Life has been super hectic lately with experiments in the lab, team projects, exams and shootings, and job hunting. The stress just piled up higher and higher, and maybe because I was sick, and I didn't go home this winter (when everybody did), didn't celebrate all the special days with my love ones, and all the most important people in my life is there, and because I didn't get to eat all the food I wanna eat, and I don't get to hug my dog...
I was overwhelmed with emotions. Homesickness.

And let me tell you people. This is when we overseas students grow up.
And YES. It still happens after six years.
And YES. I know I'm god damned lucky I'm here.
And YES. I'm thankful for everything I've already got.

The thing is when you don't get to share special moments with your family. You miss birthdays, anniversaries, everything.
When you just can’t be there, when you’re needed.
When you have to conceal what you're actually feeling to them.
When you try to convince yourself that it is all for the better.
When you're sorry but you know if you tell them you are, it would make them feel worse.

And when you hear your parents telling you they are learning to "let go", it is heart wrenching.
And when you look around and see all your peers (the Korean friends) going back "home", you just feel this pang of jealously. Seriously.

In that subway, what I saw was a girl, my age with her mom.
Her mom was trying to feed her something and she pushed her mom's hand away. Certainly not ill-manneredly, just a little frustrated maybe. I do that to mummy too sometimes, but at that point of time, I was so madly jealous of how blissful the whole picture looked to me and I tried to look away, I tried to calm myself down but the babi tears just sprung outta my eyes.

Those Korean ajoshi ajumma must think I'm crazy or that I just went through a bad break up or whatever bah. Thank goodness I was only two stops from my destination.

Babi bad mood but I'm all good now.
Bye.
Thanks for reading up to here.
I admire your patience.

Many foreigners say that Koreans are very shy and conservative.
In some sense, they are and I suppose that's why so many people gush over how cute Korean girls are. Well, we girls gush over how cute Korean guys are too. >< color="#ff0000"> H.O.Tand certainly the center of attraction.
SOoooooo much hotter than hot mamma. AHAHAHAHA ^^v


Hot mamma here can only stare and drool because hot mamma have neither the body nor the guts to wear such a HOT outfit bah~ xp


So, this was on a Saturday night.
At Hongdae - Hongdae is short for Hongik University
It's a popular shopping + drinking + clubbing + 미팅(group blind dating) + 소개팅(blind dating) + etc place for university students.
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Your truly, hot mamma who's basically a nerdy engineering student does not frequent Hongdae or clubs but there were certainly some really great memories hot mamma spent with gjq.
Qi.. Remember the KISS? or the crazy model-posing-without-cams in clubs and going home at 12 when that's the time others start to party?
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA xD.

Okay, okay, back to topic.
Bada was playing in Mansion the other night so Pascal brought Marie-yon and I there.
Erke was down and out with the flu. Boo hoo.. Too bad there'll be no piccas of him.
(Hah! I bet some of you people come back here just to see piccas of him. *I'm so jealous! ~.~ ) .

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Bada looks soooo cool here! OMG!
We went late so we didn't actually get to see him play.
I don't know why is he the "wasted German" but he was still pretty sober and cool cz he was wearing these clingy clothes that shows all his curves. I mean curves as in curves of his biceps and triceps.
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Got to meet his sister who's really nice and his gf.
*Yes people, Bada has a gf.

There were fire splurting out from each end of the stage and we heard from somebody that a girl with long hair caught fire when the last "Seoul is burning" was held. O_o
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Sweetie Marie-yon and Pascal ><. I think they somehow look really good together in this picca. Don't they?.

Hot mamma wore a sexy tube top but obstinately kept her long sleeved cardigan on inspite of all Marie-yon's complains and pleadings to "Just take it OFF!!!".
Sorry, I haven't been out clubbing for a long time and I somehow forgot how to be sexy and hot.

Even Pascal wore something that bares more skin than me.




ps: Marie-yon and I got sick after Saturday night, and we are both still sick. :/
OTL

Went to a party in Copacabana, Nonhyeong after dinner with erke, Pascal and Bada.


Posing like that with Pascal beside me... feeling a little glam. hahaha.
*note: that's his hand on my shoulder and I was leaning in. Gushhh *^^*


Didn't really know what the party was for but it was called
"First Thursday After Work Valentine's Day Moet and Chandon Rose"


Because I'm such a kiddy,I was clueless so I went and googled "Moet" and... O_o

"Moet is a French winery and co-owner of the luxury goods company Moet-Hennesy - Louis Vuitton."

*Eyes wide open, jaw drops*

That pink rose beside that bottle in the tub certainly is sweet and classy. Ain't it?

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The music was cool

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Great atmosphere.

Lots of party people. None I knew.

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However, I've got the chance to get to know alot of new nice people.

And thank goodness some did recognize me from misuda and that made me feel less like a tiny ant ready to be squash. Everytime somebody introduces me to somebody, the conversation goes.....

"Hey, this is khay inn, she's on misuda." It feels kinda like

*misuda >> khay inn*

Misuda wins over khay inn. SO MUCH MORE. Well, it's not a bad thing I suppose ^^v.

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And the reason why I kinda felt like an ant. Hot girls, handsome guys...

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With sizzling sexy hot girls like that... *No wonder Pascal loves partying.

And I looked like THAT. :(

That's Marie-yon, her boyfriend and yours truly-the little red ant.

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Marie-yon and I certainly felt a little out of place but I'm sure given more chances, I believe we shall get use and start to enjoy ourselves. ^^

This is cool! I don't know how they manage to fix fireworks to the champagne bottle but that certainly was FINE!~~~~~~~

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Everytime somebody popped a bottle, there'll be fireworks and it was quite an attention grabber. :)

Cool cool...~

Hmm, that's all for now folks.

Cheers to my first glam party experience.

*I certainly wish I have cleavage like that! xp

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Ps: Stole all piccas from facebook

The reason why I don't need a boyfriend...

...is because I have too many boy-friends.

Maybe it's due to the fact that I'm in Engineering Faculty and the ratio of guys to girl is 5:1 so...

Somehow, life in Korea got better because of them.



My 4.5 genius friend, who is ever ready to teach the three of us although he doesn't understand how can we not know simple differentiation and integration; when, we are actually engineering students. -_- He's having the flu now and somehow, the three of us fuss over him like mothers fussing over a kid. ^___________^



태헌오빠 who looks like fido-dido and will always grab whatever food or drink that's in your hands. His head is forever full of "source" and "기출" ( pass year exam papers) -_-
and 대성 오빠 who looks like snoopppppppyyyyy! ^^ He's super soft and when he smiles, his very small eyes goes n_n, that makes him look superrrr cute!!


용준 and 지호
arr 지호 is super nice and blurry.
Nowadays, it seems my day in school ain't complete if I don't see any of em... ^^

Thanks for making my each hardly bearable day, an immensely enjoyable one.
♥

I'm never one with high self confidence and sometimes if I do appear like I have that air of confidence, most of the time, I think, I'm just faking it.

Growing up, I always think of myself more of an ugly duckling than anything. I don't dress up, I don't give a damn about how I look because it is much easier staying in that comfort zone. It is like, what if I dressed up and it didn't work?

I would rather be simple jane that stick to the "norm", than be told "Hey, did your wardrobe just went wrong?"
It is just so much easier to be normal than the outstanding.

So, there comes this transition period when I started wearing skirts, I started to have at least 10% of fashion sense. And when I get positive feedback and words of encouragement, it sparked my fashion sense to a higher 20 30 %. Whatever..

However, there are times, when I get adventurous and decided to dress up by wearing something out of nowhere to break that "being normal sweet pretty" barrier. Sometimes, it works and I feel good about myself, but sometimes, when the feedback isn't good, sometimes, when what I get is downright mean. It is hurtful. It puts me right back to the ugly ducking period where I feel so small, doubting my choices, questioning my own senses, and I will have this urge to seek approval from the others.

Then again I ponder on it, and I have this new found theory. We do not make all the right choices all the time. At least I broke through that barrier, that comfort zone. To pluck up to courage to break through that comfort zone is much more glamorous than those who hide in there deep in their comfort zone making snide comments to bring me down.
So, I decided that no amount of mean hurtful words are gonna stop me enjoying being this wonderfully special me.

Ps: Again, if you have something not to nice to say, keep it to yourself, for my self-esteem's sake I prefer to be blissfully unaware of it.

qi...
Help me..

I spend so much time in hase nowadays I feel like I'm totally koreanized.

To proof to you how koreanized I am... I actually sang 머리부터 발끝까지 헛 이슈 when I was in the shower... ㅡㅅㅡ

and... My biggest fear...

I voluntarily called people 오빠... ㅠㅠ

But..
Somehow, I started to enjoy my life here and I actually really love it here.

Maybe it's the friends, maybe it's the food, maybe it's just me that have changed.

Life is a bliss lately. I hope it stays this way forever.
If you're just a year younger we coulda go roam around anam hunting for new food.
Ps: I love prof. song.
Ps Ps: Issac kene replaced by OST d.

nana, "OST took away our ISSAC!!!"
laiyee, "YALAHHHHH Who needs OST when Issac is our main thing for breakfast."
Kinn, "Issac sucks. I don't give a damn. Never eaten there."

<3

It's gonna be a picca-less long post but please please do read to the end.

Breakfast : Naturally woke up at 9am, literally forced myself back to dreamland till 12.45pm.

Lunch : Frozen pizza, I had four slices for last nite's dinner, another two slices for tomorrow.
After brunch, I perked up and pull the sheets off nana and laiyee's beds and did the laundry. Redecorated my wall and unpacked my luggage.
Felt so proud with myself and while waiting for my erke's call to go to Myeongdong together, watched '17 again'.
Called my erke at around 4.30pm asking him "Are we going to Myeongdong?". "Oh... I'm doing my suda thingy, tomorrow k...". Without feeling even an ounce of dulanness, I said "Ok."

5.00 pm : found a dead kitty right outside my front door. BAD OMEN!
5.30 pm : Called out Shafique to play tennis, ended up sitting on a bench talking for hours.

Dinner : Made some instant yaki-udon. Instant. -_- Watched 'The Curious Case of Benjamin Button' and downed a big bar of chocolate. Mmmmm~~
Halfway through the movie I started youtube-ing "Britains got talent" when I got a mysterious call with no caller-ID at 9.30pm asking me to I translated eight Jesus songs from Korean to Malay for FREE -_-. And I did it. ( I feel so angelic after being nice to my erke, and taking care of the dead cat, and not translating for free!) -_-
I'm so gonna sit beside God in Heaven! (Taysueyen no matter what you say!)

1.30 am : Started chatting with taysueyen and ganjunqi. You girls certainly entertained my monotonous life.
2.20 am : Everyone wished me goodnite, so I painted my nails (finger and toe nails), and erased and repainted them.
2.50 am : Feeling very proud of myself for not losing my cool yet and decided to blog about my ALONE-time life while drinking some Baileys outta a wine glass (just to be more classy and feel better for myself).

This might seems like a very boring day to you. Well, to be honest, it wasn't all that interesting to blog about.
The thing is, I now know why I choose to come back to "empty Korea" when I could easily extend my ticket.
I wanted a break from having to juggle groups of people, I wanted to restrict myself from being the social butterfly with too many lunch and dinner dates, having to balance in between who to meet up with, who to eat with, who to go out with.
When I made the decision to come back earlier, I sorta decided that I want to be a nun.

You hear me right.

A quiet, independent, non-attention-seeking, pohkhayinn and I wanted to prove to myself that I can be a very independent and disipline person. And that I can live ALONE without any GUYS in my life.
Muahahaha. LAME, I know.

So far, my monotonous nunny life is going well and I never once feel boring YET.
However, the attention seeking me still enjoys chatting with ms. gan for some juicy gossip & drama. So much for being a nun. -_-
And I think I was about to create some drama in my life ( Yes, drama doesn't just appear outta thin air, we humans create them) until the kitty outside my house died this morning. BAD OMEN.

Reality kicked in and I refrained myself from indulging in any sort of drama. (Somehow I have a feeling only ms. gan knows what I'm crapping about.)
Whatever it is, I reckon I can't stand this nunny life for a month although right now I'm sorta enjoying it (Frozen pizza, drinking alone, and Harry Potter marathon. Literary everything about it).

I think I'm not destined to have a nunny life. I'm just for a while wanna turn into a quiet mysterious girl. -_______-
I was just obstinate enough to deny that I enjoy the dramas in life.
So. So.... Anybody reading up to here and if you are in Korea. And you don't mind calling me out to get to know me better. 010-5891-8910. ( Not in a boy-girl dating thing; I just need some interesting hang out friends)
I promise, I won't bite anybody's head off.

It is 1.35am Malaysian time. Daddy love and mummy darling are sleeping. (Although I much prefer them awake and talking to me.)
I don't want to leave for Korea tomorrow... (It's 1.35am so it's suppose to be later today.) I seriously don't want. I don't want to go back to my empty messy basement.
There will be nobody around. Seriously nobody. No housemates ( laiyee + viona). No meiping. No didi. No erke. No kong( I hate him now). NOBODY.

I know..

I know I am strong enough to handle my life alone.
I know I will be fine surviving a month alone.
I know I won't find a mountain and jump from it.
I know I can extend my stay in Malaysia. I know.
It's just that something in my gut tells me to go back to that basement. Time to clean up the mess I left. Pick up the pieces of my life and patch them back. Get my life in focus and gear up for the new single life.
I just wish Mr. L (Loneliness) & Mr. D (Depression) will be kind enough to stay away from me when I get back there. I don't wanna go back to drawing stupid stuff like the clown above (although I really love my clown!) and drown in self-pity. What a waste of time right?
Whatever religion you believe in, keep me in your prayers.
I'll stay safe.

BTW, bear with me for a month or two for right now I'm a crazyyy attention seeker.

Called back home and got to know that Koko is leaving for china in a few hours time. Mama is kinda in a sobby mood cz all her kids are outta the country T.T

I so wish I am home right now to make her feel better......

Around these elite koreans, it is hard to turn a blind eye and not compare at all. Lately, I constantly wonder if I should keep up and compete with them. 끝까지. Too bad I don't have as strong thirst for success as they do. Sometimes I'm grateful because I'm happy doing just enough. Sometimes I feel useless because I'm not striving just as hard as they do. What they tell me is "You gotta work hard for what you want". I know they meant well but come on, I know that too. I'm just not sure of what I want and even though that is a lame excuse for me to escape being hardworking, it is still an excuse. -_- I don't even make sense.
I know what I want! But that thing I want isn't graduating with a 4.5 and getting a job in Samsung, LG, SK.
I think, I'm just crapping because home seems so near yet so far right now.
I admit it la.. I'm just homesick.

Btw, Still happy with my uni life.

Whatever solvable is not a problem ^____^

ps: I love my erke's puppy! ><

Got 46.5/130 for my programming. hehe.
Average was 77.
28.5 difference. Ok d bah?

Programming can go makan taik!

Went out with 창은 정환 현균 승근 after my very last exam last last friday.

Since erke the kepo-but-very-sweet told mama bout my hand..
So....
It's a partial fracture on my most important finger.
And that happened on Wednesday. Two days before my last programming exam.
I don't know how bad I f-up my test but whatever lahhhh.
That cast is gon be on for a month. -_-

In the mean time... I'm using this as an excuse not to study because I can't even hold a spoon properly. lalalalala....




The Korean Flower 4 & Grass aka 금잔디 wannabes.

PsPs:
This has nothing to do with the people in the above piccas.
The story goes....
Today my this friend got drunk and went to the toilet and the other went out for a smoke after awhile and after a very lonnnnnggg time a worried me went out to look for the drunken one and I saw em' hugging; not overly stupid me pretended I didn't see anything and later on they came back separately.......
Okay, I shouldn't be too surprise but I just couldn't help wondering why people have to use alcohol to achieve somethings that they want to do.
Is it really too hard for these people to find the courage to just be themselves and do what their hearts really want without using alcohol as an excuse.
Or is it the same in Malaysia and anywhere else in the world and that it's just gullible me should start accepting all these as a part of the grown-ups' world?

Things to be thankful of...

1. I have a GREAT family.
2. I have a Cute dad.
3. I have an Understanding mama.
4. I have a Generous koko.
5. I have an Adorable doggie.

6. I am in South Korea.
7. I have my erke here with me.
8. I have my bf here with me.
9. I have great friends here.

10. I am in Korea Univ.
11. Some of my classes are in English.
12. The campus is beautiful.
13. I made more friends here.
14. I have got my own room.

15. I have my bff in Boston missing me.
16. I have ganjunqi in msia missing me.
17. I have laiwaijane dying to come visit me.
18. I have kong in snu missing me.
19. I have didi in hanyang missing me.

20. I have got everything to be thankful of.

<3 My room....


And nana...


and laiyee and andrew

Was studying in super quiet common study room and my stomach decided to let some gas out.

And it came out in a soft pooooooot..

The guy beside me wasn't listening to anything on his mp3. -_-

I know he heard it and I felt super embarrassed I wish the floor could open up and swallow me.

The thing is....

I know he's in my programming class because we were studying the same subject.

And there's only 3 Malaysians in that 30 people class. No way he doesn't know me. -_-

He did like nothing happened and I syok sendiri-ly snickered at myself.

If you go ewwwwwwwwwww after reading this, it's not like girls fart rainbows so...

I guess it's ok to poooooot once in awhile although it is certainly not something to be proud of.

Ok, I know I don't make sense.

bopian. I used too much brain for the past 5 weeks. and am still using it.

miss didi.

Junqi.. This post is for you to laugh.



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포케, 샨, 비오 이런 식으로 시작하는 이름들은 외국인 유학생인가.

이름 -> 포케* 왠지 포케몬

Yeah, somebody can just reappear outta the blue; in fact I'm one of em too.

Whatever it is, I read your tsy. So, dear world I'm gonna stop my laments and 'Love Life'. (The vid Huiying posted.)

For the pass 3 weeks I have been hogging all the Indian food, Uzbekistan food, Japanese food I can get in Annam. I seriously need a break from being all Korean. Urgggghhh...

Uni life is really crazyyyyy but I find myself enjoying my busy life rather much. With my first to-be-shocking uni exams rushing towards me in full speed, I'm seriously gearing up to put up a fight k......죽겨버려!!!!

Ey, miss sampat-ing with tsy leh..

Introducing me hometown big wormsssss... yummmm~

Ohhh.. Fyi, I did the FM thingie. -_-
('FM' originates from the radio fm thing and you gotta introduce yourself by shouting at the top of your lungs until the others are sastified.
"민종고대(what shit what shit Korea Univ)!!! what shit what shit 공대(Engineering department)!!! what shit what shit 화공(chem dprtment)!!! Student ID: 2007!!!! I am POH KHAY INN !!!" )

BABIIIIIIIII!!!!!!! There's this lecturer who bossed me into doing the FM thing. -_- and there's this sweet dunno-what-is-his-position person who cheered and saved me from redoing my FM.
Oh, My Fm was a superbly mouse voiced lame one and I stunned(yeah like dota stun ppl) everyone till they look at me as if I come from planet kjl;flkajdlf;kjasdf;lkj (cz that planet doesn't exist).

That concludes my very interesting uni life.

Happy ms. tay? xP
bye

I'm gotta stay alive through out this semester!! <--- this was in my head while I was rushing to marketing class. at least 20 mins by foot. I made it in 15.
I know, I'm supergirl...

I went into my first nano class. Geezzzz, I wish somebody would shoot me.
It's freaking H.A.R.D and I'm lacking behind for 3 weeks. -_-
Even the prof. asked if I'll be alright. -_-

If you're wondering how I can facebook so much when I sound so busy.
Well, facebook is my sole entertainment. -_-

I'm so -_-, I don't know how many -_- I feel in a week. -_-
There's no picca to upload in my blog, "why?" because I practically have no life.
Even this blog is so boring. -_-

I need food for energy.
I need a long sleep.
I need a massage.
I need a break.

Till then...
我要冲冲冲 我要洴洴洴
风大雨大我不怕
我要冲冲冲 我要洴洴洴
风大雨大洴一下给人看

PS: I'm sure the 洴 is wrong but I can't find the one with "hand". (If you know what I mean..)
zz -_-