If you are around me a lot, you would have noticed I have always worn a ring around the middle finger on my left. It was given by erke when he first got the offer to go over to Korea and he decided to buy me a gift before he left. We were little and kinda cute (we still are) and I was telling him I want a ringgggg! That's the only accessory I didn't have back then.
So, he got me a ring and told me to take it off only when my boyfriend finally buys me one ring that really matters. The first ring broke after two years (maybe because it was a cheap one :P ) and I bugged him to get me a new one. And at 18, he got me another ring and I've been wearing it till today.
After all these years, erke did asked me to take it off once, a few months ago but that didn't happen because I was stubborn and wanted to piss him off badly. I guess he was a little frustrated and worried that I'm not seeing anybody for such a long time. xD
And I did consider making a wish upon it and throwing it into the deep blue sea, but that didn't happen either, because the analytical part of me told me that would be a tad too foolish.
I've worn a ring since I was 16 and all of a sudden, halfway through dinner, I slipped it off and put it around my neck.
I dunno what triggered that.
I haven't dated anybody in awhile. And awhile = Almost a year?
Fine. I know I got very fail. I know, I know... I just can't help it. It just happened.
Sorta like, I settled into this 'single' life phase and get so used to it that it feels so hard to let another person into my life.
Maybe I'm just obsessively self-centered that I don't like sharing my life;
or maybe I somehow succeed in psyching myself into being so busy that I don't feel desperate for love;
or maybe because I spend most of my life in South Korea and there's no 'right' person there;
or maybe nobody can accept my temperamental and crazy antics;
or maybe there's too many girl-friends (usually attached themselves) promoting singledom;
or maybe seeing so many other girl-friends pondering about breaking ups, I'm just timidly cautious of another broken relationship,
and also maybe, I'm too sketchy about playing 'the game'.
Okay, okay, I know I'm pretty good with giving uber many justifications for my incompetency in this part of my life.
-____-
A lot of you reading this may practically be able to smell the desperation through what I've just written above. However, before you (whether single and happy being single, single and playing the game, attached and supports singledom, looking but deny your desperation) snort in disgust and x the page, consider that I am 23 and haven't been dating for 'awhile'.
And, there's just no 'right' person around.
Gahhh!!!!!!! I don't think there's a 'right' person. The 'right' person will be there when I stop analyzing and am ready to let someone into my life. Which haven't been happening because I gear back every single time blocking everyone out.
I guess I would love to have a taste of having a special somebody and that is why I slipped that ring off that finger; even though it feels kinda weird not being able to spin it with my thumb. And I couldn't help throwing a few glances at the mark left by the band after so many years.
I guess I could get used to that...
...pretty soon.
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Friday, August 27, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Monday, August 09, 2010
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
Initially, I didn't plan to come back this summer until Erke told me that the only thing he regretted was not coming home during his very last holiday. I changed my mind that instant and came home to see the old folks at home. It feels like nowhere is better compared to home. And after being independent for so long, it feels great to be pampered and protected. *love love!*
My koko has so often drop a word here and there in our conversation saying that I've never blogged about him etc. And this post is sooooooo dedicated to him because he cooked me Maggi for the FIRST TIME EVER in my life.
He was half drowsy watching his drama on his lappie when I knocked on his door, took a picca of his lazy bump and sneaked beside him in his bed. Then I babbled non-stop about nothing and everything because I know that annoys him to death.
And finally, I blurted, "I'm hungrrrrrrrrryyyy... Wouldn't you cook me a packet of Maggi?...?"
Knowing my koko, I've expected an answer like, "You esoklah!" or "Wah, your face very pretty ah?" but instead he said, "Okay, after this episode."
O_o
I was baffled, he NEVER COOKS. NEVERRRRRRRRRR!! NEVERRRR!!!
I've cooked him Maggi infinite times but he has NEVERRRRRRRR cooked me anything.
So, I thought he was just joking, but the drowsy lazy ass really got out of bed to cook me Maggi at 3am in the middle of the night! muahahahahaaaa
And his Maggi was surprisingly springy and really good.
Awwwwwwww.........
If my erke reads this post, I think his heart will be very imbalance (this is a direct translate from chinese that means, he will be very emo/sad/jealous) because he cooked me the "moutain and pearls from sea smell"( chinese proverb).
He made sushi, he made shabu shabu, he made pasta, he made lots for me but I never blogged about them.
And now I'm blogging about koko's Maggi. -_-
Excuses made specially for pjc:
Because in Korea I don't have time to blog. :P
My koko has so often drop a word here and there in our conversation saying that I've never blogged about him etc. And this post is sooooooo dedicated to him because he cooked me Maggi for the FIRST TIME EVER in my life.
He was half drowsy watching his drama on his lappie when I knocked on his door, took a picca of his lazy bump and sneaked beside him in his bed. Then I babbled non-stop about nothing and everything because I know that annoys him to death.
And finally, I blurted, "I'm hungrrrrrrrrryyyy... Wouldn't you cook me a packet of Maggi?...?"
Knowing my koko, I've expected an answer like, "You esoklah!" or "Wah, your face very pretty ah?" but instead he said, "Okay, after this episode."
O_o
I was baffled, he NEVER COOKS. NEVERRRRRRRRRR!! NEVERRRR!!!
I've cooked him Maggi infinite times but he has NEVERRRRRRRR cooked me anything.
So, I thought he was just joking, but the drowsy lazy ass really got out of bed to cook me Maggi at 3am in the middle of the night! muahahahahaaaa
And his Maggi was surprisingly springy and really good.
Awwwwwwww.........
If my erke reads this post, I think his heart will be very imbalance (this is a direct translate from chinese that means, he will be very emo/sad/jealous) because he cooked me the "moutain and pearls from sea smell"( chinese proverb).
He made sushi, he made shabu shabu, he made pasta, he made lots for me but I never blogged about them.
And now I'm blogging about koko's Maggi. -_-
Excuses made specially for pjc:
Because in Korea I don't have time to blog. :P
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Thursday, November 05, 2009
The reason why I don't need a boyfriend...
...is because I have too many boy-friends.
Maybe it's due to the fact that I'm in Engineering Faculty and the ratio of guys to girl is 5:1 so...
Somehow, life in Korea got better because of them.
My 4.5 genius friend, who is ever ready to teach the three of us although he doesn't understand how can we not know simple differentiation and integration; when, we are actually engineering students. -_- He's having the flu now and somehow, the three of us fuss over him like mothers fussing over a kid. ^___________^
태헌오빠 who looks like fido-dido and will always grab whatever food or drink that's in your hands. His head is forever full of "source" and "기출" ( pass year exam papers) -_-
and 대성 오빠 who looks like snoopppppppyyyyy! ^^ He's super soft and when he smiles, his very small eyes goes n_n, that makes him look superrrr cute!!
용준 and 지호
arr 지호 is super nice and blurry.
Nowadays, it seems my day in school ain't complete if I don't see any of em... ^^
...is because I have too many boy-friends.
Maybe it's due to the fact that I'm in Engineering Faculty and the ratio of guys to girl is 5:1 so...
Somehow, life in Korea got better because of them.
My 4.5 genius friend, who is ever ready to teach the three of us although he doesn't understand how can we not know simple differentiation and integration; when, we are actually engineering students. -_- He's having the flu now and somehow, the three of us fuss over him like mothers fussing over a kid. ^___________^
태헌오빠 who looks like fido-dido and will always grab whatever food or drink that's in your hands. His head is forever full of "source" and "기출" ( pass year exam papers) -_-
and 대성 오빠 who looks like snoopppppppyyyyy! ^^ He's super soft and when he smiles, his very small eyes goes n_n, that makes him look superrrr cute!!
용준 and 지호
arr 지호 is super nice and blurry.
Nowadays, it seems my day in school ain't complete if I don't see any of em... ^^
Thanks for making my each hardly bearable day, an immensely enjoyable one.
♥
♥
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Because everybody blogged about their dads and I need to escape reading my untouched Biology slides.
So,
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!!!
I LOVE YOU 1000000000000000 (infinity)!!!!!
My father never reads my blog so... it's gonna end here.
Ps: My head is cluttered with alot of shit and shitty bio is not going in. How?
So,
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!!!
I LOVE YOU 1000000000000000 (infinity)!!!!!
My father never reads my blog so... it's gonna end here.
Ps: My head is cluttered with alot of shit and shitty bio is not going in. How?
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Monday, June 01, 2009
After retakes and retakes and retakes. ms. jane is finally going to UK!!!!
OMGGGG! There shall be another reason for me to buy my tiks to go next year!
This coming July, who's gonna go shopping with me in Bangsar?
Who's going to grab my hand and chase after RTM crew?
Who's going to employ me as a spec finder?
Who's going to send me off in KLIA.... T.T
The evil part of me wish you didn't pass your test.
OMGGGG! There shall be another reason for me to buy my tiks to go next year!
This coming July, who's gonna go shopping with me in Bangsar?
Who's going to grab my hand and chase after RTM crew?
Who's going to employ me as a spec finder?
Who's going to send me off in KLIA.... T.T
The evil part of me wish you didn't pass your test.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Saturday, March 07, 2009
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Understanding the word F.A.M.I.L.Y
It has been another one year since the five of us get to stay under one roof.
For one week, precisely the only week in a year, our house was filled with laughter and well a lil of a squabble here and there. ^^
Papa and mama stuffed us with superb homecook food each day with papa handling the big seafood dishes and mama cooking up a smokey kitchen.
And the three of us?
You might think at 25. 23. and 21 we are all grown-ups.
OH no no no! We haven't change one bit when you put us together.
My brothers are no angels. Seriously.
Idiot erke practically just punches me in the arm nonchalantly whenever he feels like it.
and my Babi eldest brother orders me around the house. Bringing him his ringing handphone, getting him water, getting his wallet. ARGGGGHHH!
Well, I gotta admit I'm no girly girl either, my best defense is - aiming a kick at my brothers' crotch.
Still, no matter how monstrous my brus are, home is the best place ever and I love you guys.. <3
Ps:
When erke, you left for the airport and koko, you left to go back to work, tears welled up in mama's eyes.
I suppose it was the sudden quietness, I guess she felt that the house is really empty without the two of you.
Well, mummy she didn't say it out but I know she knows with me leaving in a week's time, it will be another year long wait for the five of us to be under this roof again.
Ps Ps:
I know the two of you silently stalk my blog although you guys always mock me "Blogging is soooo LAME!! "
Ps Ps Ps:
Come to think of it, we did had a fab one week together.
I wanna play TD elements again! again!
It has been another one year since the five of us get to stay under one roof.
For one week, precisely the only week in a year, our house was filled with laughter and well a lil of a squabble here and there. ^^
Papa and mama stuffed us with superb homecook food each day with papa handling the big seafood dishes and mama cooking up a smokey kitchen.
And the three of us?
You might think at 25. 23. and 21 we are all grown-ups.
OH no no no! We haven't change one bit when you put us together.
My brothers are no angels. Seriously.
Idiot erke practically just punches me in the arm nonchalantly whenever he feels like it.
and my Babi eldest brother orders me around the house. Bringing him his ringing handphone, getting him water, getting his wallet. ARGGGGHHH!
Well, I gotta admit I'm no girly girl either, my best defense is - aiming a kick at my brothers' crotch.
Still, no matter how monstrous my brus are, home is the best place ever and I love you guys.. <3
Ps:
When erke, you left for the airport and koko, you left to go back to work, tears welled up in mama's eyes.
I suppose it was the sudden quietness, I guess she felt that the house is really empty without the two of you.
Well, mummy she didn't say it out but I know she knows with me leaving in a week's time, it will be another year long wait for the five of us to be under this roof again.
Ps Ps:
I know the two of you silently stalk my blog although you guys always mock me "Blogging is soooo LAME!! "
Ps Ps Ps:
Come to think of it, we did had a fab one week together.
I wanna play TD elements again! again!
Monday, January 12, 2009
I know it's a lil late but Happy New Year.
December was G.R.E.A.T for me though to be honest my 21st birthday was a little pathetic with everybody thinking that my boyfriend is going to celebrate with me but what the heck when he's caught in a family reunion dinner and then got sick and so on... Well, I still had a small piece of cheese cake from GS 25 as my 21st birthday cake ^^
So,
Yeah I shoulda appreciate right?...^^ Thanks for alllllll the freaking sweet birthday in Facebook, Friendster, and hp messages. Really, they made life real sweet. ^^~
Btw, not updating to talk bout my birthday tho I already did. (ps:Too much homecook food makes me blissfully dumb..)
The real updates.
12/21: A night to remember.
Farewell party + birthday party + Christmas party.
Chian Ping and I shared three baskin cakes ! ^^
My erke and I
Him and I
And the person I shall miss the most in 2009...
30/12: Setting off at 5.30am took my flight, transit etc.
Midnite-meeting-up with the girls for a surprise birthday bash for shyyi.
Babi all so prettily dolled up but me! Practically looked like a dried up leaf among the flowers.
BABI!!!!!!!!!!
I purposely choosed the pic in which I looked okay.. hehe. =P
A quiet New year eve's steamboat dinner.
And some serioussinging shouting in Jane's house.
And when the clock strikes 12.
HAPPY NEW YEAR...!!
Oh, I nearly forgot the drive up to Genting at freaking 3am -_-
You guys are a bunch of nut heads.
Still I had a blast with you guys~
<3
khay inn the good girl of 2009
Ps: I shall forgive the monkey who got wasted till she was sent to a clinic rather than meeting up with me for a nice dinner.. Well, keberuk-ness. xD
Ps Ps: My koko was real sweet to pick me up and treating me to a superb dinner and after that giving me a large angpau for my belated birthday. Sayanggg~~~~
Ps Ps Ps: Taysueyen is to leave for her Boston tomorrow morning and I shall freaking miss her not.
Ps Ps Ps Ps: I L.O.V.E Pasar Payang's stench and the Xiao Fan's cats and dogs.
Ps Ps Ps Ps Ps: I now drive like a kimi raikkonen in super congested kuala terengganu.
December was G.R.E.A.T for me though to be honest my 21st birthday was a little pathetic with everybody thinking that my boyfriend is going to celebrate with me but what the heck when he's caught in a family reunion dinner and then got sick and so on... Well, I still had a small piece of cheese cake from GS 25 as my 21st birthday cake ^^
So,
Yeah I shoulda appreciate right?...^^ Thanks for alllllll the freaking sweet birthday in Facebook, Friendster, and hp messages. Really, they made life real sweet. ^^~
Btw, not updating to talk bout my birthday tho I already did. (ps:Too much homecook food makes me blissfully dumb..)
The real updates.
12/21: A night to remember.
Farewell party + birthday party + Christmas party.
Chian Ping and I shared three baskin cakes ! ^^
My erke and I
Him and I
And the person I shall miss the most in 2009...
30/12: Setting off at 5.30am took my flight, transit etc.
Midnite-meeting-up with the girls for a surprise birthday bash for shyyi.
Babi all so prettily dolled up but me! Practically looked like a dried up leaf among the flowers.
BABI!!!!!!!!!!
I purposely choosed the pic in which I looked okay.. hehe. =P
A quiet New year eve's steamboat dinner.
And some serious
And when the clock strikes 12.
HAPPY NEW YEAR...!!
Oh, I nearly forgot the drive up to Genting at freaking 3am -_-
You guys are a bunch of nut heads.
Still I had a blast with you guys~
<3
khay inn the good girl of 2009
Ps: I shall forgive the monkey who got wasted till she was sent to a clinic rather than meeting up with me for a nice dinner.. Well, keberuk-ness. xD
Ps Ps: My koko was real sweet to pick me up and treating me to a superb dinner and after that giving me a large angpau for my belated birthday. Sayanggg~~~~
Ps Ps Ps: Taysueyen is to leave for her Boston tomorrow morning and I shall freaking miss her not.
Ps Ps Ps Ps: I L.O.V.E Pasar Payang's stench and the Xiao Fan's cats and dogs.
Ps Ps Ps Ps Ps: I now drive like a kimi raikkonen in super congested kuala terengganu.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Li V says (3:22 PM):
yeah rite oi u forgot to tell me something
khay^inn says (3:23 PM):
what ting?
Li V says (3:26 PM):
cissssss it's my bday today!!!!!!!! \
khay^inn says (3:26 PM): akakkakakakakaka
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE
Li V says (3:26 PM):
gahhhhhhhhh
khay^inn says (3:26 PM):
when's mine?
Li V says (3:26 PM): omggggggggg wait let me think
On the other side...
sue yen~~ says (3:27 PM):
lol u know it;s her bday right?
facebook pun ada
khay^inn says (3:27 PM):
i didnt know!
sue yen~~ says (3:29 PM):
so bad la u ppl haiz sadness
She got the answer anyway..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABEHHHH
I miss you lots!
khay^inn says (3:29 PM):
to compensate imma post something in my blog for u k ^^
Li V says (3:29 PM):
i wan something sweet sweeter than the lyrics u posted!
There you go.... A SWEET POST for you....!
Sweet enough bo? Not enough I can add more.... xP
<3
Love,
BFF khay inn~
yeah rite oi u forgot to tell me something
khay^inn says (3:23 PM):
what ting?
Li V says (3:26 PM):
cissssss it's my bday today!!!!!!!! \
khay^inn says (3:26 PM): akakkakakakakaka
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE
Li V says (3:26 PM):
gahhhhhhhhh
khay^inn says (3:26 PM):
when's mine?
Li V says (3:26 PM): omggggggggg wait let me think
On the other side...
sue yen~~ says (3:27 PM):
lol u know it;s her bday right?
facebook pun ada
khay^inn says (3:27 PM):
i didnt know!
sue yen~~ says (3:29 PM):
so bad la u ppl haiz sadness
She got the answer anyway..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABEHHHH
I miss you lots!
khay^inn says (3:29 PM):
to compensate imma post something in my blog for u k ^^
Li V says (3:29 PM):
i wan something sweet sweeter than the lyrics u posted!
There you go.... A SWEET POST for you....!
Sweet enough bo? Not enough I can add more.... xP
<3
Love,
BFF khay inn~
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away I will always love you
However long I stay I will always love you
Whatever words I say I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away I will always love you
However long I stay I will always love you
Whatever words I say I will always love you
I will always love you
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Erke made okonomiyaki with the ingredients Yuni sent to him. YUMMMYY!!
No pics no pics, but it was a super special 삼겹살(korean bbq pork) okonomiyaki.
Crossover between korean/jap food.
Mwahhh. Heavenly!!!~~
Loving my life ^^
Loving erke for cooking for me with an injured hand.
Koko, u gotta step up so I'll love u more than erke. =P
Hee... A flimsy attempt to make my brothers gimme more than I deserve.
Well, I love being spoiled ^^v
Leaving for Hanoi tomorrow, pray for my safety.
Love ya'll~ <3
No pics no pics, but it was a super special 삼겹살(korean bbq pork) okonomiyaki.
Crossover between korean/jap food.
Mwahhh. Heavenly!!!~~
Loving my life ^^
Loving erke for cooking for me with an injured hand.
Koko, u gotta step up so I'll love u more than erke. =P
Hee... A flimsy attempt to make my brothers gimme more than I deserve.
Well, I love being spoiled ^^v
Leaving for Hanoi tomorrow, pray for my safety.
Love ya'll~ <3
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Papa, mama, koko,
If you're wondering how erke and I are doing. We're really doing quite well despite not seeing much of each other this semester.
Well, we still like to piss each other off.
And I still love showering him all the affection just so he would get irritated. ^^v hee~
But still we behave ourselves well and took at least one decent pic together.
If you're wondering how erke and I are doing. We're really doing quite well despite not seeing much of each other this semester.
Well, we still like to piss each other off.
And I still love showering him all the affection just so he would get irritated. ^^v hee~
But still we behave ourselves well and took at least one decent pic together.
I haven't celebrated your birthday with you for 3 years and I'm sorry. I wish I could be around you more often, I wish I could be by your side when you're 50, 51, 52 and so on....
I miss seeing you with mama,
holding each others' hands.
I miss seeing you, huffy puff carrying mama's bags down the school slope.^^
I miss seeing you with that smile of triumph, bringing in lotsa nonas, papayas, dragon fruits, yams, all sorts of fruits and vegetables from your small patch.
I miss seeing you and mama cooking together in the kitchen, making me the best food in the world.
I miss hanging out with you when you're trimming puffy's fur with me by your side asking you a hundred million out of nowhere questions. ^^
I miss sitting beside in the car with you, telling you you've got baby hairs growing out from your obviously botak head just so you would buy me an icecream. hehe.
I miss sneaking out late at nite, lying down on your chest watching EPL with you till mama comes out and scold me. and you. he.he.
I miss you waking me up for school with questions like, "Guess who won last nite? And what was the score?"
I miss u telling me, "Massage till I fall asleep ya..."
I miss..........Everything about you.
And I would love so much to look you in the eye and tell you 'I love you'.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!!!!!
Always your little girl,
pohkhayinn^^~
I miss seeing you with mama,
holding each others' hands.
I miss seeing you, huffy puff carrying mama's bags down the school slope.^^
I miss seeing you with that smile of triumph, bringing in lotsa nonas, papayas, dragon fruits, yams, all sorts of fruits and vegetables from your small patch.
I miss seeing you and mama cooking together in the kitchen, making me the best food in the world.
I miss hanging out with you when you're trimming puffy's fur with me by your side asking you a hundred million out of nowhere questions. ^^
I miss sitting beside in the car with you, telling you you've got baby hairs growing out from your obviously botak head just so you would buy me an icecream. hehe.
I miss sneaking out late at nite, lying down on your chest watching EPL with you till mama comes out and scold me. and you. he.he.
I miss you waking me up for school with questions like, "Guess who won last nite? And what was the score?"
I miss u telling me, "Massage till I fall asleep ya..."
I miss..........Everything about you.
And I would love so much to look you in the eye and tell you 'I love you'.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!!!!!
Always your little girl,
pohkhayinn^^~
Saturday, July 05, 2008
sue yen~no more orgo!!! till monday anyways says (11:51 PM):
it's SCARY!!!! u better change it real soon or i wont click on ur blog
siao eh.... first thing in the mornin open ur blog got shocked
Even tho u're the shortest dwarf walking on earth, you are one of the few that are closest to my heart. Love u loads girlie!
it's SCARY!!!! u better change it real soon or i wont click on ur blog
siao eh.... first thing in the mornin open ur blog got shocked
Even tho u're the shortest dwarf walking on earth, you are one of the few that are closest to my heart. Love u loads girlie!
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