Hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe.

Please forgive me, I'm just kinda happy and I feel like I wanna jump and spin and dance. Thank goodness I can't do cartwheels, I will do em' if I can.

hehehehehehehehehehehehehehhehehehehehehehehehe.

Enough of giggling. I suppose I have to behave like a grown up now.

Considering I'm gonna start work soooooooon and I'm hoping for something wonderful. A girl can be SO GREEDY!
kekekekekekekekkekekee.

Okay! Seriously.

Goodnight world! <3

I just did something really silly.
I went to facebook and changed my status from single to being in a relationship.
With who? I typed my own name, click on myself and then press save!

And facebook told me this..
You cannot create a relationship with yourself.

Sometimes it's fun to just create nonsense because I'm young and I'm allowed to do so.

I know it's too early for a 'New Year Resolutions' list but I have always wanted one. I never had one because I know I'm a sucker at keeping promises to myself.

Next year, in 2011, I shall turnover a new leaf and be nicer to myself. I'm already nice to myself. I don't know what I'm writing either.

There's so much I want, so.. I decided on creating my 1st list!

1. Busan for a lot of fishy food. 5 years in Korea and I've never been there. Shame on me.
2. Mongolia. Bilguun promised he would let me ride a horse!
3. Japan again, for a lot of fishy food too.
4. Shanghai because I love China!
5. A nice cozy place of my own with a proper wardrobe. Preferably a walk-in one. I will create one!
6. Nice nice working attires. ^.~
7. Maybe a dancing machine.
8. A new phone when the current's contract ends.
9. A scooter? My erke will kill it and dump it into hangang.
10. A partner if possible.
OK BYE WORLD

Lately, it feels like I've been constantly fighting for everything that I desire for.

Getting a little tired of all the stress I pile on myself and trying to let myself go out of control for a bit.

Learning to let go of things, and some people.

In dire need of stability.

Recap....

January, After Gisoo's farewell, I finally got some time to just do whatever I like since I was alone when everybody's away. I was still on the show and it was all good. Most memorable time of the month would be my solo skiing trip. Also, helped Ah yong hit on my bestie. :p

Febuary, Made a fool out of myself, crying on air. I was terribly homesick feeling sorry I didn't go back for CNY. At the end of the month, papa mama koko ziying and nai nai came for a week. It was the best time of the year. \^^/

March, Welcoming back the old faces and the new semester started. The show ended for good. Our house's boiler burst in the middle of the night and flooded our house. Also went to Samcheok for the rail-bike shooting with Euphracia, Marie-yon and Tzabarit.

April, Graduation picca shooting. I don't know how we were able to fit the shooting in considering this was one of the most torturous crazy semester. I also had to do experiments for the whole semester. Lucky me to have a very kind onni who helped me with my experiment in Prof. Kim Jong Yeob's lab.

May, I think the spring semester was the craziest ever. Was stressed out with my major and everything else. Was looking for an internship too. Somehow still had time to hang out with the e&e eng peeps.

June, Got done with finals and headed to China!!! A bizarre crazy beautiful, unexpected journey. Made me fall in love with the chinese culture for the first time in my life. <3

July, Back to Malaysia, Taewoo, Minjae, Ssol came over to Malaysia and laiyee and I showed them around KL. Next up, home sweety home with extremely good food. Was away from home exactly a year, felt like a decade to me. Dear old puffy is as cute as ever. <3

August, Pascal Dior turned up in Kuala Terengganu Aiport. Spent an awesome week in Redang Island, my childhood paradise. Much has changed after 7 years. Also met up Koko, ziying and with Jane and co. in KL.

September, Found myself back in South Korea with the new Autumn Semester and a freaking mouldy yucky house. Was homesick because I wanted a comfy life and more holidays! hehehe. Renovated our house, had a rooftop bbq, meals with korean family and the ko-yon games.

Also, finally was able to fit Deutsch into my timetable. End of September, come Jane's visit to Korea.

October, Yuni was in Seoul for three weeks. Sent Taewoo off to Canada and at this point of time, I was stressed out with job seeking. Faced so many failures that juggled me out of my dreams and put me in gear to get a job. Attended Eva's beautiful wedding and met up with Marie-yon and Abi doing the Get it Beauty show and after that had some fun together. :)

November, Been going for job interviews and keeping my fingers crossed for a great job. Annual dinner, a great reminder to how 85 people grew up together into different individuals in the space of 5 and a half years. Also, Shin's leaving back to China.. TT

December, Koko & Ziying's wedding is just around the corner. Everything about the next crucial step in my life shall be finalize. And also I will be celebrating my 23 birthday. ^^

xoxo, recap shall continue.
~tatas

Maybe it is me not being able to grow up at the ripe age of 22.

I hate it when I'm forced to accept the fact that not everybody is as kind.

And to stop expecting people to be kind.

I hate it when I'm forced to grow up, to harden up towards life.

I know I should have known better but it just is to hard to accept.

and I as much as I want to change myself to be just one of them, there's just a part of me that keeps telling me to not stop quit believing in the best in others.

I'm gonna face the society real soon. I'm looking forward to the challenges. I know life is not all rainbows and fairytales.

I shall pick myself up every single time I fall, put on a smile and live prettily.

Q: You seemed like a happy-go-lucky person. How do you cope with stress and challenges that you face in your life in Korea?

A: Well, yes, I might be happy-go-lucky but that is because I chose to be so. I don't like to bow down to the amount of stress piled on me and show it to people around me. Sometimes, when I had really really bad day and nothing goes well, at the end of the day, all I can do is to force myself to smile or laugh. It might sound a little crazy but it really helps.

I definitely have to write this down. I had an interview today.

It usually takes 20 mins by bus to Myeongdong and since the office is right there and I gave myself an hour's time, I decided to take the bus. Freaking bad move.
Somehow, it wasn't the peak hour but the traffic was terrible and the bus was stuck in Dongdaemun for 40 mins. I had to jump off the bus and hop onto a taxi.

Still, traffic was crazy terrible. I don't know exactly what happened but we were stuck at a halt and I was at the verge of going berserk trying to pester the taxi driver to just work some miracles.
And of course, he could do NOTHING about the traffic.

All of a sudden, I caught a glimpsed of three motorbikes at the rear-view mirror of the taxi. Something in me just tells me that I should do something, so I bolted the door and kept it open so the taxi couldn't move on. Then I flagged down one biker, asked the taxi driver to give him the specific directions (since I don't really know the names of the streets), pay the taxi and just got onto the bike, helmet-less on a four street highway!

This very kind-hearted biker (also young and handsome^^) seeing me all dressed up in a formal suit, let me sit in front of his bike and sped off to the Myeongdong. I was clutching my bag and his bag and balancing myself on the tiny bike, hanging in there for my dear life.

Biker: Hang in there! Btw, where are you from?
Me: Malaysia! Thank you so much for your help!!!
Biker: It's nothing.
......
Me: This is the first time I've ever done this!
Biker: ME TOO! LOL

In no time, we just vroomed there and he dropped me off right in front of the main door...... T T
Such an ANGEL!!!

He even declined the money I offered him and wished me goodluck.
I wish I had the time to asked his number to at least buy him a coffee... ^^

I don't know how to express what I'm feeling into words right now but,
Awww, I'm so blessed to meet someone so kind when I was in dire need for help.
These angels are so rare in this metropolitan, but they are there. And they are always a reminder to me to stay true to myself.
To always try to stay kind and try to help others.

I don't know what I'm writing right now, I can't put what I'm feeling into words somehow.
I just know that, today, I was lucky and I was also inspired. somehow...