Hie, I've been kinda busy lately~ =.="
Ok, I guess I shouldn't lie, I'm just lazy to think of something to write =P
So,
Today's "black day" and if u are wondering what this day mean, let me explain to u, read on !

Koreans don't just celebrate valentine's day(14 feb) , they celebrate white day(14 mac) and black day(14 April) as well. On v-day girls are suppose to give chocolates or candies to the guys, w-day, for guys to return chocolates or candies to the girls, and b-day, for singles who didn't get any chocolates to gather together and eat a kind of black-sticky-mee (Jjajangmeon) *dumb*

Last year when I first knew about these days I was still so-in-love *smirk*smirk*. And I didn't even bother whether it is black day or whatever day.
This year, I wake up reeeeeally late, and got an sms from my friend, a very short sms (happy black day) and that made me write this post.

According to Wikipedia,
Black Day (April) is an informal tradition for single people (a.k.a. Unit Solo, Korean: 솔로부대) to get together and eat noodles with black bean sauce in South Korea.

The idea is that those who didn't give or receive gifts on Valentine's Day or White Day can get together and eat Jjajangmyeon (짜장면), Korean noodles with black bean sauce (hence the name), to commiserate their singled.

Hmm, I guess now I'm gonna celebrate b-day instead of v-day and w-day. haha, lmao *scoffs*scoffs*

p/s: Anybody wanna join me?

Hello.. greetings from the library. I just wrote 2 pages of my report and my hands are damn tired! Oh, and I just found out that typing is so much better than writting. It's a pity my damned teacher won't except any typed report!
Btw, as u all know I shifted last weekend. It was damn tiring leh.. Anyway, thanks to tiing yong, chun kong and housemates ^^, chye yang, xiang xing( I never knew I would ever put his name in my blog ^ ^ things do change ) etc etc etc.

Will post some pics of my new room and my new add soon , I hope...

Stay tuned for more...

Place : Seoul, Korea...
Date : 27 March 2007
Time : 2 ~ 4pm

Situation :
There are five people in a small little house.

One, in her room, locked out from the world happily talking to her boyfriend via web cam. She don't need to give a damn about what others have to say because all the time, she feels warm and secure. Oh.. so blissful~~

One, lying in her bed in her room, also locked out from the outside world. Thinking, and probably missing her ex. It was soooo history but the scars are still there and they still hurt once in a while. Oh.. so god-damn-that-fucking-guy!!!

One, sitting on the floor in her friend's room. Telling her friend about her stuff. Probably afraid of going into a relationship. She's in a dilemma, seeing too many broken relationships, she's insecure but still it is oh.. so sweet ^^

One, lying his friend's comfy bed facing loads of questions about his past relationship. In which he was the one hurt badly. Trying to think of an answer to those ques but at the same time blocking waves of twisted memories. Oh.. so painful..

One, sitting on the edge of her comfy bed, listening to her friends certainly bring back memories. "Those were the past" and "I'm so over him" she tells herself. Deep down she knows she's not all that strong. Oh.. so confusing..

I never even once write about "him" or even mentioned "him" in my blog although "he" was a big part of my life...

It was just like that... Cut-Clean-Done
Yes, it's true that I was the one who wanted to end the whole thing *heartlessly* but that doesn't mean that I get hurt lesser or I heal faster. I'm not a person that can hide my emotions well but for some reason just this time I put up strong face and just shurgged everything off, go out, and play.
But...
At the same time... Whenever I finally have the time to sit down alone... The same ghostly feeling surrounded me... That was the time when I really hated myself for being so weak, for letting myself indulge in self-pity, for wanting to know how's "he" doing, for letting myself looking back at emails, photos etc. It was really so damn pathetic! I tried letting myself cry as much as I like, I tried talking to others about it but that damnned feeling just won't go away. So I put all those into my drawings. I got better as time pass but whenever something bad happen to me, my emotions will just fall... to somewhere negative?... and I will once again draw, draw and draw stupid stuff.

Because of "him" I let myself indulge in self-pity and I decoratED my wall with these...


These are a few "pathetic" ones...
I get to draw them properly only when I'm in real "down" mode...

I drew the "scissors" one two days ago 15 minutes before going to my class, I left that one on my desk and when I when I got back home and was about to include it into one of those "pathetic" ones...

I saw another drawing just underneath it...

Another "HE" drew this and included this...
"You can either just see ugly dirty strokes of pencil or rather choose to find something better than that, something much more prettier, warm or sweet... Not gloomy dirty strokes on a simple plain piece of paper. Life is too colourful and short to be wasted in darkness and boredom.. I prefer to choose colours..."

Tired of seeing his one and only sister draw zombie-like-stuff...
"HE" flipped over a few pieces and boldly changed my wall into this ^ ^...


"HE" can be as stupid and as idiotic as a pig and mock me, bully me, smack-down me etc!!!!... but sometimes when "HE" cares about me, "His" small actions can really touch me to tears... ( okay, i know this sentence sounds very super gay =.=")


p/s: "he" and "HE" are both important people in my life. This post wasn't written to blame "him" it's purely about how I feel. Anyway, I'm starting to stay positive because I dont wanna stay a gay my whole life =P
Thanks to those who care...

Looking back...


The past 1 and half years i shared with all of you..



It was really fun and memorable! Each and every one of you made my life wonderful..
Yes.. We did fought with each other.. xP


And we had fun doing stupid stuff together ^^




Now that we have graduated from LEI and we can only meet occasionally while rushing to different classes...



But...


I will never forget those wonderful memories ^^

People come into our life...


And leave...

Recently I graduated from SNU's Language Institue. I left my dear teachers who really did care alot for me for the past one and a half year. I left a few meet-nod-smile-bye friends that I didnt even really get to know their names.

Yesterday after sending Viona off I was a little sad inside... but thinking that she'll be having fun in M'sia and that she'll return after 3 weeks I simply jz shrugged off the sad sad feeling.

After breakfast, Laiyee and I sent Yuichi off onto the 206 bus that will bring him back to Korea Unv, and out of my life... *sob sob* He is really a great friend, really adorable and good at taking care of others. Sometimes it kinda suprise me that we met each other not more than 2 months but we hanged out so much and had so much fun together. (writing all these in past-tense jz suxs! T.T )




Leaving behind their footprints in our heart...

"Do we need to start a future to erase the past?"

Kinda busy lately. If u count in tonnes of computer hworks, endless tuition and fun "going-out-to-play" Im really damn busy.
So..
I shifted to Gocheok-Dong 2 weeks ago. Staying with my malay friend is not a problem at all ^^ In fact it is kind of fun.
Hmm... enjoying my little space in my little room away from the ghostly feeling i felt in my previous room... Gosh... u have no idea how depressing it was for me to stay at home when I was still in Boramae.

Will post a pic of my new room soon ^^( to lazy to take pics leh)
to Syen, Mama or anyone who wants to send me a card or something or anything..
This is my new address ^^
52-16 Geocheok-dong, Guro-gu, Seoul, South Korea.