It is 1.35am Malaysian time. Daddy love and mummy darling are sleeping. (Although I much prefer them awake and talking to me.)
I don't want to leave for Korea tomorrow... (It's 1.35am so it's suppose to be later today.) I seriously don't want. I don't want to go back to my empty messy basement.
There will be nobody around. Seriously nobody. No housemates ( laiyee + viona). No meiping. No didi. No erke. No kong( I hate him now). NOBODY.

I know..

I know I am strong enough to handle my life alone.
I know I will be fine surviving a month alone.
I know I won't find a mountain and jump from it.
I know I can extend my stay in Malaysia. I know.
It's just that something in my gut tells me to go back to that basement. Time to clean up the mess I left. Pick up the pieces of my life and patch them back. Get my life in focus and gear up for the new single life.
I just wish Mr. L (Loneliness) & Mr. D (Depression) will be kind enough to stay away from me when I get back there. I don't wanna go back to drawing stupid stuff like the clown above (although I really love my clown!) and drown in self-pity. What a waste of time right?
Whatever religion you believe in, keep me in your prayers.
I'll stay safe.

BTW, bear with me for a month or two for right now I'm a crazyyy attention seeker.

Fuck relationships.
Fuck reality.
Fuck chances.

Okay okay. Update update.
Warning : It's gonna be a long post so I don't care if you guys wanna just scroll and look at the piccas like what beruk does all the time. :P

I hope you guys never check out my facebook because I stole all the piccas I have now from my friends in facebook. I have no piccas from my NZ trip-NONE because they are all with Viona because if I have a camera then I won't be able to make it to NZ (My dream dream dream country since I don't know when). Everytime I go on a trip my bank balance drops to very very near 0........... O_o
Anyway, lets not think about the bank balance and just focus on NZ okay,
NEW ZEALAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

See! Dreams do come true!!

Here's my first trip out of Asia mannnnnnnn!
lalalalalalala.....~

NZ is B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L!!!
When you're there you feel like you're living in a postcard. Like literary IN the POSTCARDDD!

I didn't have money to do this... but I will have the money to do this SOON, when I start working and earning real money $$$$ !!!

I can just stand from this tower kind of thingy and look and take piccas of that lucky guy there :(
But I think I'm already lucky enough (at least luckier than taysueyen muahahahaha) to be in this picca so... ^^v


Here's two Germans Viona and I met and toured with from Franz Josef.
Henning and Chris ^^ Really nice people!!!~~ They are super TALL like freaking 183 and 190!! -_- and for the very first time in my life I feel small, I feel tiny. Ahhh~ I love angmohs, they make me feel like I'm tweety bird instead of godzilla.
But if taysueyen was there with me she would look like an amoeba, too tiny, overly micro. muahaha


And this picca. Fulamak! Just so you all know I didn't do it although the Germans dared me to by offering to pay. BUT! I didn't do it NOT because I'm a chicken, (okay, I'm a half chicken). I didn't do it because they offered to pay and it is not nice to let them pay when the jump is 100NZD!


In NZ everything closes at 5.30pm except the pubs. Like seriously...EVERYTHING!
So we usually stay in and that's us caught on camera by Sarah while playing the game "spoons" in which I was named Ms. Spoon. -_-


The glacier. I went on it.~~ Lalalalala... It was a tiring + frustrating + nice + not too nice + quite nice + ok nice. I know I don't make sense to any of you but I actually do, only to myself.
I'm still showing the glacier off because the water is so blueeeeee...

Hokittikka where we met Sarah from New Orleans who treated us fudge. She's REALLY REALLY nice too!
I think all angels flocked to NZ because NZ is paradise! And I'm one of them too.....


The Hokitikka beach is clean by the way although the sand is black! I have never seen BLACK SAND in my life so it is very very very super extra special.

Sarah took this picca and I know I look super duper ugly with a bag kapit in between my legs and my ass half hanging in the air but I still love this picca because of the blue four-wheel in the background. ^^

People, I'm good, I'm home and I'm healthy with my bump growing every second because I don't have to run to classes and I'm stuffed up with food. -_-

Heading over to KB to see Ms. Gan soon. Mwahhhhhhh Life~
I'm living and loving my life.

ps: I know I used wayy too many exclamation mark in this post but really NZ is worth that many exclamation marks!!! =P

Because everybody blogged about their dads and I need to escape reading my untouched Biology slides.
So,

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!!!
I LOVE YOU 1000000000000000 (infinity)!!!!!

My father never reads my blog so... it's gonna end here.

Ps: My head is cluttered with alot of shit and shitty bio is not going in. How?

Called back home and got to know that Koko is leaving for china in a few hours time. Mama is kinda in a sobby mood cz all her kids are outta the country T.T

I so wish I am home right now to make her feel better......

Around these elite koreans, it is hard to turn a blind eye and not compare at all. Lately, I constantly wonder if I should keep up and compete with them. 끝까지. Too bad I don't have as strong thirst for success as they do. Sometimes I'm grateful because I'm happy doing just enough. Sometimes I feel useless because I'm not striving just as hard as they do. What they tell me is "You gotta work hard for what you want". I know they meant well but come on, I know that too. I'm just not sure of what I want and even though that is a lame excuse for me to escape being hardworking, it is still an excuse. -_- I don't even make sense.
I know what I want! But that thing I want isn't graduating with a 4.5 and getting a job in Samsung, LG, SK.
I think, I'm just crapping because home seems so near yet so far right now.
I admit it la.. I'm just homesick.

Btw, Still happy with my uni life.

After retakes and retakes and retakes. ms. jane is finally going to UK!!!!

OMGGGG! There shall be another reason for me to buy my tiks to go next year!

This coming July, who's gonna go shopping with me in Bangsar?

Who's going to grab my hand and chase after RTM crew?

Who's going to employ me as a spec finder?

Who's going to send me off in KLIA.... T.T

The evil part of me wish you didn't pass your test.

WHY THE HELL ALL MY BEST GUY FRIENDS SUDDENLY PAKTO DDDDDD?!!!

and the only one that is still single is in Hanyang. -_-