qi...
Help me..

I spend so much time in hase nowadays I feel like I'm totally koreanized.

To proof to you how koreanized I am... I actually sang 머리부터 발끝까지 헛 이슈 when I was in the shower... ㅡㅅㅡ

and... My biggest fear...

I voluntarily called people 오빠... ㅠㅠ

But..
Somehow, I started to enjoy my life here and I actually really love it here.

Maybe it's the friends, maybe it's the food, maybe it's just me that have changed.

Life is a bliss lately. I hope it stays this way forever.
If you're just a year younger we coulda go roam around anam hunting for new food.
Ps: I love prof. song.
Ps Ps: Issac kene replaced by OST d.

nana, "OST took away our ISSAC!!!"
laiyee, "YALAHHHHH Who needs OST when Issac is our main thing for breakfast."
Kinn, "Issac sucks. I don't give a damn. Never eaten there."

<3

Just to prove to myself and everybody else...

I'm still very much alive.
Very much the same me.
Healthy and happy. Although this picca shows no signs of
"hot", "sexy" or "sophisticated".

Keep your thoughts to yourselves if it isn't something nice and quit clicking the "comments" link.
The last thing I need is skepticism.

This post is dedicated to myself.
Celebrating all the single 21-year-old girls out there.

"went for a walk, saw people hands in hands, think that they are all pretty fucked up."
This was in my head when I clicked on "New Post" link. Very bitter.

I THINK RECENTLY I AM NOT A GOOD PERSON AND I HAVE A MONOTONOUS SIMPLE LIFE THAT IS NOT TOO WORTH SHARING AT THE MOMENT.

UNTIL I FIND A GOOD REASON TO STOP BLABBING ABOUT NOTHING, AND START WRITING SOMETHING INTERESTING TO SHARE, THIS IS THE END OF THIS BLOG.

BYE.

It's gonna be a picca-less long post but please please do read to the end.

Breakfast : Naturally woke up at 9am, literally forced myself back to dreamland till 12.45pm.

Lunch : Frozen pizza, I had four slices for last nite's dinner, another two slices for tomorrow.
After brunch, I perked up and pull the sheets off nana and laiyee's beds and did the laundry. Redecorated my wall and unpacked my luggage.
Felt so proud with myself and while waiting for my erke's call to go to Myeongdong together, watched '17 again'.
Called my erke at around 4.30pm asking him "Are we going to Myeongdong?". "Oh... I'm doing my suda thingy, tomorrow k...". Without feeling even an ounce of dulanness, I said "Ok."

5.00 pm : found a dead kitty right outside my front door. BAD OMEN!
5.30 pm : Called out Shafique to play tennis, ended up sitting on a bench talking for hours.

Dinner : Made some instant yaki-udon. Instant. -_- Watched 'The Curious Case of Benjamin Button' and downed a big bar of chocolate. Mmmmm~~
Halfway through the movie I started youtube-ing "Britains got talent" when I got a mysterious call with no caller-ID at 9.30pm asking me to I translated eight Jesus songs from Korean to Malay for FREE -_-. And I did it. ( I feel so angelic after being nice to my erke, and taking care of the dead cat, and not translating for free!) -_-
I'm so gonna sit beside God in Heaven! (Taysueyen no matter what you say!)

1.30 am : Started chatting with taysueyen and ganjunqi. You girls certainly entertained my monotonous life.
2.20 am : Everyone wished me goodnite, so I painted my nails (finger and toe nails), and erased and repainted them.
2.50 am : Feeling very proud of myself for not losing my cool yet and decided to blog about my ALONE-time life while drinking some Baileys outta a wine glass (just to be more classy and feel better for myself).

This might seems like a very boring day to you. Well, to be honest, it wasn't all that interesting to blog about.
The thing is, I now know why I choose to come back to "empty Korea" when I could easily extend my ticket.
I wanted a break from having to juggle groups of people, I wanted to restrict myself from being the social butterfly with too many lunch and dinner dates, having to balance in between who to meet up with, who to eat with, who to go out with.
When I made the decision to come back earlier, I sorta decided that I want to be a nun.

You hear me right.

A quiet, independent, non-attention-seeking, pohkhayinn and I wanted to prove to myself that I can be a very independent and disipline person. And that I can live ALONE without any GUYS in my life.
Muahahaha. LAME, I know.

So far, my monotonous nunny life is going well and I never once feel boring YET.
However, the attention seeking me still enjoys chatting with ms. gan for some juicy gossip & drama. So much for being a nun. -_-
And I think I was about to create some drama in my life ( Yes, drama doesn't just appear outta thin air, we humans create them) until the kitty outside my house died this morning. BAD OMEN.

Reality kicked in and I refrained myself from indulging in any sort of drama. (Somehow I have a feeling only ms. gan knows what I'm crapping about.)
Whatever it is, I reckon I can't stand this nunny life for a month although right now I'm sorta enjoying it (Frozen pizza, drinking alone, and Harry Potter marathon. Literary everything about it).

I think I'm not destined to have a nunny life. I'm just for a while wanna turn into a quiet mysterious girl. -_______-
I was just obstinate enough to deny that I enjoy the dramas in life.
So. So.... Anybody reading up to here and if you are in Korea. And you don't mind calling me out to get to know me better. 010-5891-8910. ( Not in a boy-girl dating thing; I just need some interesting hang out friends)
I promise, I won't bite anybody's head off.

It is 1.35am Malaysian time. Daddy love and mummy darling are sleeping. (Although I much prefer them awake and talking to me.)
I don't want to leave for Korea tomorrow... (It's 1.35am so it's suppose to be later today.) I seriously don't want. I don't want to go back to my empty messy basement.
There will be nobody around. Seriously nobody. No housemates ( laiyee + viona). No meiping. No didi. No erke. No kong( I hate him now). NOBODY.

I know..

I know I am strong enough to handle my life alone.
I know I will be fine surviving a month alone.
I know I won't find a mountain and jump from it.
I know I can extend my stay in Malaysia. I know.
It's just that something in my gut tells me to go back to that basement. Time to clean up the mess I left. Pick up the pieces of my life and patch them back. Get my life in focus and gear up for the new single life.
I just wish Mr. L (Loneliness) & Mr. D (Depression) will be kind enough to stay away from me when I get back there. I don't wanna go back to drawing stupid stuff like the clown above (although I really love my clown!) and drown in self-pity. What a waste of time right?
Whatever religion you believe in, keep me in your prayers.
I'll stay safe.

BTW, bear with me for a month or two for right now I'm a crazyyy attention seeker.

Fuck relationships.
Fuck reality.
Fuck chances.

Okay okay. Update update.
Warning : It's gonna be a long post so I don't care if you guys wanna just scroll and look at the piccas like what beruk does all the time. :P

I hope you guys never check out my facebook because I stole all the piccas I have now from my friends in facebook. I have no piccas from my NZ trip-NONE because they are all with Viona because if I have a camera then I won't be able to make it to NZ (My dream dream dream country since I don't know when). Everytime I go on a trip my bank balance drops to very very near 0........... O_o
Anyway, lets not think about the bank balance and just focus on NZ okay,
NEW ZEALAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

See! Dreams do come true!!

Here's my first trip out of Asia mannnnnnnn!
lalalalalalala.....~

NZ is B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L!!!
When you're there you feel like you're living in a postcard. Like literary IN the POSTCARDDD!

I didn't have money to do this... but I will have the money to do this SOON, when I start working and earning real money $$$$ !!!

I can just stand from this tower kind of thingy and look and take piccas of that lucky guy there :(
But I think I'm already lucky enough (at least luckier than taysueyen muahahahaha) to be in this picca so... ^^v


Here's two Germans Viona and I met and toured with from Franz Josef.
Henning and Chris ^^ Really nice people!!!~~ They are super TALL like freaking 183 and 190!! -_- and for the very first time in my life I feel small, I feel tiny. Ahhh~ I love angmohs, they make me feel like I'm tweety bird instead of godzilla.
But if taysueyen was there with me she would look like an amoeba, too tiny, overly micro. muahaha


And this picca. Fulamak! Just so you all know I didn't do it although the Germans dared me to by offering to pay. BUT! I didn't do it NOT because I'm a chicken, (okay, I'm a half chicken). I didn't do it because they offered to pay and it is not nice to let them pay when the jump is 100NZD!


In NZ everything closes at 5.30pm except the pubs. Like seriously...EVERYTHING!
So we usually stay in and that's us caught on camera by Sarah while playing the game "spoons" in which I was named Ms. Spoon. -_-


The glacier. I went on it.~~ Lalalalala... It was a tiring + frustrating + nice + not too nice + quite nice + ok nice. I know I don't make sense to any of you but I actually do, only to myself.
I'm still showing the glacier off because the water is so blueeeeee...

Hokittikka where we met Sarah from New Orleans who treated us fudge. She's REALLY REALLY nice too!
I think all angels flocked to NZ because NZ is paradise! And I'm one of them too.....


The Hokitikka beach is clean by the way although the sand is black! I have never seen BLACK SAND in my life so it is very very very super extra special.

Sarah took this picca and I know I look super duper ugly with a bag kapit in between my legs and my ass half hanging in the air but I still love this picca because of the blue four-wheel in the background. ^^

People, I'm good, I'm home and I'm healthy with my bump growing every second because I don't have to run to classes and I'm stuffed up with food. -_-

Heading over to KB to see Ms. Gan soon. Mwahhhhhhh Life~
I'm living and loving my life.

ps: I know I used wayy too many exclamation mark in this post but really NZ is worth that many exclamation marks!!! =P

Because everybody blogged about their dads and I need to escape reading my untouched Biology slides.
So,

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!!!
I LOVE YOU 1000000000000000 (infinity)!!!!!

My father never reads my blog so... it's gonna end here.

Ps: My head is cluttered with alot of shit and shitty bio is not going in. How?