Today I learned that, "No matter how pretty you are, what is coming out of your mouth counts".
Complaining is alright, but when the complains turn nasty.....
Imagine a pretty girl, like pretty real pretty and cute complaining and she still looks kinda cute.
And the moment she gets the hang of complaining, words like "that horny bitch", "she's uglyyyy, face like shit, like 10 days didn't shit that kind of shit", "I think she'll die a spinster", "no wonder so old d still don't have boyfriend" etc.
That really got me woahhhhh, I went totally speechless and kept my silence because I have totally no idea what to say anymore.
Those stuff has absolutely no connection with what she's complaining, it is like attacking others personally.
And I seriously think those stuff she was complaining about weren't that big of a deal.
I just couldn't tell it straight to her face right in front of so many audience. And I don't have the guts to tell her personally, why bring up the past and spoil the day rite?
And well, it downed me that my koko and erke were right whenever they scolded me if my words get way to harsh or attacky. Those stuff really make a person ugly.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Eh people, I wanna tell y'all about my working place.........
IT IS FREAKING GELI-LY DIRTY!!!!!!!!! YERRRRRRRR!!!~~ T.T
I so semangat wake up early in the morning to go work... and from 9am to 4.30pm I had my butt stucked in a backless-seat. And the only job I got to do is sticking a pH meter into tubes of longkang water. And my conclusion is, the blacker the water is, the stinkier it is, I'm so suspecting there's some mixture of shit in those water. Total torture!!! -_____-
Anyway, I heard it's a pretty boring job and I didn't expect much. Brought along my trusty mickey mp3 and a book to kill time. But SERIOUSLY LOHHHH THAT PLACE!!
It is like some haunted office jointed with a lab!! -_0
The place is so filthy and dusty I don't know how those people can work there. Okay lar, memamg the boss's fault that the whole "office" is in such a state but please leh.... Can't the people working there at least keep the place clean?
And outta five girls, only one make up and dress up like she's there to work and she was the only who did try to get to know us-the foreign unwanted practical students. The others got me woahhhhhhhh when during lunch, one girl even had her foot on the chair and had "shouting-conversations" with her friends. -_- Why can't koreans be more polite and friendly? Scared the shit outta me neh.
I would rather sit for another 3 weeks of exams, I don't freaking want to go back to that place to work lehhhh... REALLY!!!
3 weeks nia 3 weeks, 3 weeks 3 weeks 3 weeks niaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
IT IS FREAKING GELI-LY DIRTY!!!!!!!!! YERRRRRRRR!!!~~ T.T
I so semangat wake up early in the morning to go work... and from 9am to 4.30pm I had my butt stucked in a backless-seat. And the only job I got to do is sticking a pH meter into tubes of longkang water. And my conclusion is, the blacker the water is, the stinkier it is, I'm so suspecting there's some mixture of shit in those water. Total torture!!! -_____-
Anyway, I heard it's a pretty boring job and I didn't expect much. Brought along my trusty mickey mp3 and a book to kill time. But SERIOUSLY LOHHHH THAT PLACE!!
It is like some haunted office jointed with a lab!! -_0
The place is so filthy and dusty I don't know how those people can work there. Okay lar, memamg the boss's fault that the whole "office" is in such a state but please leh.... Can't the people working there at least keep the place clean?
And outta five girls, only one make up and dress up like she's there to work and she was the only who did try to get to know us-the foreign unwanted practical students. The others got me woahhhhhhhh when during lunch, one girl even had her foot on the chair and had "shouting-conversations" with her friends. -_- Why can't koreans be more polite and friendly? Scared the shit outta me neh.
I would rather sit for another 3 weeks of exams, I don't freaking want to go back to that place to work lehhhh... REALLY!!!
3 weeks nia 3 weeks, 3 weeks 3 weeks 3 weeks niaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Friday, June 20, 2008
Exams, done.
Had tonnes of plans before and during exam period, but oddly enough.
Right now, just right now. I don't feel like going anywhere but to stay in my little room, keep it tidy, clean out my closet, wash my sheets, clear all the papers, get a good sleep and get this done..
Personally thinks that this is quite nice but I guess it will never be up to my dad and my brothers' standard.
Did and will put much effort into it, so please if there's something somehow wrong with it tell me nicely nah.. ^^ I will correct it. :)
Had tonnes of plans before and during exam period, but oddly enough.
Right now, just right now. I don't feel like going anywhere but to stay in my little room, keep it tidy, clean out my closet, wash my sheets, clear all the papers, get a good sleep and get this done..
Personally thinks that this is quite nice but I guess it will never be up to my dad and my brothers' standard.
Did and will put much effort into it, so please if there's something somehow wrong with it tell me nicely nah.. ^^ I will correct it. :)
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Who would have guessed that this could ever happen..
Chaiei and I in Geocheok, South Korea -__- DENG!!!!
When he added me in msn a month ago, I was like "Who are you?" Muahahaha.
And I even forgot his name, I'm sorry lar, I was never interested in younger guys. Muahahaha.
Uish, this pic is so GANU KITE!!......
But with that zit sitting on the tip of my nose and my late-nites-puffed-up eyes and you with your tired, just-got-back-from-a-battle face....
Is that seriously the only pic of us?!
Sorrylah, who asked u dungu came here on my exam week, else, wuu.. I'll bring u around every single day and we'll have a good time. ^^v
Btw, this is an ugly pic I korek from yr friendster when you added me, approximately 2 days after you added me in msn. Tak da guna la mung. Need me baru add me. Saddening.
Ej's house, dunno when and why I was there. Muahahaha.
Anyways, take care over in Chiba and if can grab some jap chicks lar. Aiyerrrr~
Ps: I'm enjoying the groundnuts biscuit you bought for me. Heartfelt... ^^v
Chaiei and I in Geocheok, South Korea -__- DENG!!!!
When he added me in msn a month ago, I was like "Who are you?" Muahahaha.
And I even forgot his name, I'm sorry lar, I was never interested in younger guys. Muahahaha.
Uish, this pic is so GANU KITE!!......
But with that zit sitting on the tip of my nose and my late-nites-puffed-up eyes and you with your tired, just-got-back-from-a-battle face....
Is that seriously the only pic of us?!
Sorrylah, who asked u dungu came here on my exam week, else, wuu.. I'll bring u around every single day and we'll have a good time. ^^v
Btw, this is an ugly pic I korek from yr friendster when you added me, approximately 2 days after you added me in msn. Tak da guna la mung. Need me baru add me. Saddening.
Ej's house, dunno when and why I was there. Muahahaha.
Anyways, take care over in Chiba and if can grab some jap chicks lar. Aiyerrrr~
Ps: I'm enjoying the groundnuts biscuit you bought for me. Heartfelt... ^^v
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Monday, June 16, 2008
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Tomorrow's the start to the week when I gotta sit for 9 papers, yeah, u heard me right freaking NINE papers. -___________- and the All-Responsible-and-I-Can-Do-It ME decided to not cancel tutoring my little girl. Seriously.. Is this pohkhayinn? I'm really REALLY wondering!!!!!!!!
But seriously, I don't know what's gotten into me, I wake up automatically around 8.30 every single morning when I've been sleeping like around 4~5am -________-
And if you think this is gonna be an emo post. CHENG CHENG CHENG!!!!! Nope! I'm in the usual cry, moan, complaint boo-hoo-hoo I'm so kesian mood.
I'm HIGH, like seriously HIGH, every single minute, second, I feel like singing my lungs out and do a crazy dance! Happy ma!.... ^^v
As I'm typing this, I'm getting higher. And I woke up 49 minutes ago. Sotttttt de~~~~~
Oh, jz in case any of you wonder am I going nuts, I'm suspecting that too.
Or maybe, I just turned into a matured young lady over the week. ^^v (Heeeeee.)
Imma hit the library soon. Mwah!~
But seriously, I don't know what's gotten into me, I wake up automatically around 8.30 every single morning when I've been sleeping like around 4~5am -________-
And if you think this is gonna be an emo post. CHENG CHENG CHENG!!!!! Nope! I'm in the usual cry, moan, complaint boo-hoo-hoo I'm so kesian mood.
I'm HIGH, like seriously HIGH, every single minute, second, I feel like singing my lungs out and do a crazy dance! Happy ma!.... ^^v
As I'm typing this, I'm getting higher. And I woke up 49 minutes ago. Sotttttt de~~~~~
Oh, jz in case any of you wonder am I going nuts, I'm suspecting that too.
Or maybe, I just turned into a matured young lady over the week. ^^v (Heeeeee.)
Imma hit the library soon. Mwah!~
Thursday, June 12, 2008
I may not be the same, I may do things differently, think differently, I may have an ignorant strong believe in karma and I may seem really gullible to you.
I know I'm stubborn and I have out of ordinary habits, I do things spontaneously, I let my emotions get the better of me, and thus cause more problems for myself whilst caring too much.
Everyone have their moments when they doubt themselves. Maybe you do really have such a strong character you never doubted yourself for a fraction of a second but that is freaking You.
That certainly doesn't make you more superior or freaking better at handling life, and that doesn't give you the authority to judge me, to crush my confidence and faith.
If you can't stop judging me, then freaking back off and get on with your own life, your way.
I will change in time, to be a stronger person, a more self centered person, to be a faker person, to be a person who can survive the world the crooked way. I will, when the time comes.
It is just not right now. I'm not ready to be a person who insist upon something I want and turn a blind eye at others' feelings. I still want to care about the people around me. I still want to believe and focus on the good in everybody. I'm still the person who have my thoughts written all over my face. I'm still working on keeping my dreams big, although they're shrinking as I learn more about this world.
But believe me,
I'm still working, working on building the invisible barrier ah pek lua exasperatedly asked me to.
Working on being less gullible and more seng muk.
Working on the art of twisting sentences and telling half-truths.
I'm beginning to have trust issues with some people, I now know where to draw the line and how to lash back when someone pushes my limit.
And, I know when to back off when I sense the insincerity in a person.
All in all, I learned to care less.
But that is not the person I wanted to be when I started out in this world. Sometimes I do feel lost, as in whether I should follow suit and adopt a stronger character, I know I could if I want to.
But I never wanted to.
So stop it with all the judging stuff. I may face more obstacles on the way, but when I reach the final destination, I shall look back and tell myself, "I did everything MY way, and I along the journey, I did well." and I'm sure I'll be alright if sometimes people do take advantage of me.
Afterall, doing the haughty I'm-so-cool-and-gorgeous walk will never work out for me, deep down inside, I know I'm still the champion in climbing a cherry tree to very the top branch, and I guess I'm unique just that way. My way, not yours.
I know I'm stubborn and I have out of ordinary habits, I do things spontaneously, I let my emotions get the better of me, and thus cause more problems for myself whilst caring too much.
Everyone have their moments when they doubt themselves. Maybe you do really have such a strong character you never doubted yourself for a fraction of a second but that is freaking You.
That certainly doesn't make you more superior or freaking better at handling life, and that doesn't give you the authority to judge me, to crush my confidence and faith.
If you can't stop judging me, then freaking back off and get on with your own life, your way.
I will change in time, to be a stronger person, a more self centered person, to be a faker person, to be a person who can survive the world the crooked way. I will, when the time comes.
It is just not right now. I'm not ready to be a person who insist upon something I want and turn a blind eye at others' feelings. I still want to care about the people around me. I still want to believe and focus on the good in everybody. I'm still the person who have my thoughts written all over my face. I'm still working on keeping my dreams big, although they're shrinking as I learn more about this world.
But believe me,
I'm still working, working on building the invisible barrier ah pek lua exasperatedly asked me to.
Working on being less gullible and more seng muk.
Working on the art of twisting sentences and telling half-truths.
I'm beginning to have trust issues with some people, I now know where to draw the line and how to lash back when someone pushes my limit.
And, I know when to back off when I sense the insincerity in a person.
All in all, I learned to care less.
But that is not the person I wanted to be when I started out in this world. Sometimes I do feel lost, as in whether I should follow suit and adopt a stronger character, I know I could if I want to.
But I never wanted to.
So stop it with all the judging stuff. I may face more obstacles on the way, but when I reach the final destination, I shall look back and tell myself, "I did everything MY way, and I along the journey, I did well." and I'm sure I'll be alright if sometimes people do take advantage of me.
Afterall, doing the haughty I'm-so-cool-and-gorgeous walk will never work out for me, deep down inside, I know I'm still the champion in climbing a cherry tree to very the top branch, and I guess I'm unique just that way. My way, not yours.
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